So, my first post on Covenspace.com. It's nice to find a spot on the internet where all kinds of spiritual people come together and share their experiences and ideas, and I'm happy to share mine with the rest of you. I'll tell you a tiny bit about myself first, to get things going.
My name is Ines, I am now 19 years old and living in Amsterdam. I don't follow a certain path or religion but do concider myself a spiritual person. I was born with certain 'gifts' that, I later found out, run in both sides of my family. I am sensitive to energy flowing around in space, capable of healing (mostely mental, but physical) pains, although I still need to learn so much about doing that. I'd say that I've always sort of known I could do and feel more than others around me, but my parents being agnostic and not very interested in religion or spiritual things, I didn't pay much heed. When I became in the age where my puberty started, my paranormal 'gifts' started to really kick in. I couldn't be in big groups because I would pick up on every emotion and not being able to shut them out, I got really depressed. It took me some time to realise that a lot of things that I was feeling weren't actually my own emotions and it took me even longer to figure out how to stop it from happening. Of course I still don't have it down completely, it sometimes still happens, but I can now put my defenses up and protect myself a lot more. What made me starting to actually read and learn more about paganism, angels and everything spiritual was my treatment by a group of Maori's. What they do is basically healing through deep tissue massage. It hurts like hell, because these were big people and they put their full weight on painpoint of your body. They believe that by doing that they release the negative energy, loosen it up so they can take it out of your body. Before going into the treatment centre, I hadn't talked to anyone and nobody knew me there. I had already discovered that I could heal with my hands at that point, but I hadn't really told anyone. I walked into the room and the guy that later treated me almost emmidiatly walked over and said: "what's up with your hands?". At first I didn't understand what he meant, until he told me that he could see my hands shining and shimmering. I was later asked to help with the treatment of my former boyfriend. I agreed to do it and held his head. My ex said he didn't feel any kind of pain even though the guy treating him was using quite a lot of force. I could feel a light tingling in my right hand comming from his head, then it turned to a heat going up to my elbow until it reached my shoulder and it actually started to hurt. The pain reached the area where you could say my heart chakra is, in the middle of my chest and I couldn't take it any more. I let go of his head and immidiatly my ex started to feel incredible ammounts of pain, much like the ones I had when I was getting the treatment. I started to feel the pain of others that were being treated there much more clearly, almost as different colors of enery floating through the room and reaching me. When I grounded myself outside I realised I should protect myself better against these things, might they happen in the future. I started researching and learning more about Wicca and paganism and ever since I have had many more experiances concerning spirit apparitions, dreams comming true, healing and much more.

So there you have it; that's how it started for me. I'm planning on keeping track of what's happening to me spiritually and I'd love to share it with you, hoping to gain more knowledge in return.

Blessed be,
Ines